~What doesn't kill you makes you stronger~

Right??? So for the last couple of months, I've pretty much been using this blog as my journal...and since I'm so bad a keeping one, this is a good way to remember things that have happened in my life. I'm still debating whether or not it's a good idea to post this, but I think that it's easier to write it then it is to say it out loud. On the 26th of January, Randy and I got some pretty exciting and extremely scary news. That was the day I found out I was going to be a mom. As one can imagine, every single emotion that could go through me did. I was overwhelmed, scared to death that I wouldn't be adequate as a mother, but absolutely thrilled that I got to experience the joys, and pains, of motherhood. Randy and I had decided to wait for a while before we actually told a ton of people, so mostly we just told immediate family. Only about a week went by before we told really close friends. Although I had always thought that I would wait to tell pretty much anyone, the excitement of it all made me loose my better judgment. However, there were a lot of people that I wanted to tell but for some reason couldn't, and the only thing that I can say is that the spirit constrained me, knowing what would lie ahead for me. I went in to the doctors on the 17th of March for my second appointment, only to find that my child no longer existed. The bundle of joy that I looked forward to in October wouldn't come. Now I'm not writing this for any other reason then to avoid the questions. Those people who did know that I was pregnant, would probably notice in a few weeks when I wasn't getting any bigger, or simply not making a public announcement...or next month when I post pictures of me scuba diving (which is freakin amazing by the way!! but you seriously can't do that while pregnant) And to keep those who didn't know I was pregnant to keep from asking when I'm going to have a baby. The truth of the matter is, I'm doing suprisingly well considering. I truely believe that the Lord has a plan for his children...and that plan is not always easy. I think the Lord prepared me before, as well as after, to experience this trial, and I can't help but see the tender mercies that he has blessed me with since. I really do have the best husband a girl could ask for. He has been so great through all of this and I'm so lucky to have him in my life. Anyway, like I said in my last post... life is a climb, and I'm going to enjoy it, good or bad.

~Life...It's A Climb~

I've been wanting to blog about this last weekend for a few days, and just simply have not had the had the time. This weekend was the long awaited convention for World Financial Group. I pretty much had mixed feelings about going, mostly because Thursday I had the flu and was still not feeling 100% and the convention required me to get up much earlier than normal. However, I decided that it should be worth the effort. Boy was I wrong...it was 20 times worth the effort. It completely shattered any expectations I had. I've never experienced anything like it; and suffice it to say, it changed my life. You may be thinking, how could something that you just for 10 hrs actually change your life...well...it completely changed the way I view my world. I have never been so inspired, never been so moved and so motivated to succeed. These people who spoke to us have succeeded at things that I still have a hard time comprehending, and yet, they are not unwilling to share all their secrets. And what amazing secrets they have! My favorite part of the convention was when Steven Siebold came and spoke to us about how to be mentally tough. There were so many things that he brought up that i never thought about, and realized that these were some of the major reasons that I haven't been succeeding to the level that I would like. Yes...it is no one's fault but my own. I've never really been one to blame my problems on someone else, but when something happens that stops my progress that is simply a lack of education on my part, it's hard to accept full responsibility for it. The key to success is being mentally tough, something that the majority of people don't know how to, let alone want to, do. This is what I'm absolutely determined to be...and in the meantime, if I work hard, I will be successful. We had another main leader come and talk to us that was also very powerful. He hit on a lot of the mentally tough points, but he also had some other really great key points. He told a story of a guy he met in Mexico that lived in one of the roughest, most destitute parts of Mexico. This man had to constantly dig for fresh water, and as a result, lost his wife and children to dehydration because the water was not clean enough and made his family sick. next to where he lived was a road and only 15 miles from this road was a city that had fresh water. This man had lived in the same place for 70 years and NEVER tried to find a better way of life. When the speaker asked this man why he never traveled the road, he responded that people die on that road. The speaker responded, how do you know? have you ever been on it? The man responded that he hadn't, but that everyone knows that specific road is not safe. This really got me thinking and of course the speaker pointed this out as well...but how many times do we settle for the life we're living when only 15 miles down the road is a much better life? How many times do I get too scared to take a risk that will improve not only my life, but also the lives of the people around me? The next thing this speaker brought up is the fact that none of us know exactly how long we're going to be in this world. We don't know when our time is up, so we should procrastinate starting our success journey. He said that life is a climb and that we should enjoy every moment of it, good or bad. For me, the time is now to make a change...a change in my attitude that will essentially change the course of my life. 2010 is going to be a great year...it's already had its share of trials, but there is the light of success at the end of the tunnel...and I'm in a race to get to that light!!!